my mother (the crazy woman) is seriously pissing me off!! i absolutely DO NOT understand her. i'm like saying i'll go off after the dinner to meet my friends. and she gets all hysterical and starts screaming at me saying that i put my friends above my family. goodness! anyone with a mom like that would do the same? i'm sooo pissed. she just doesn't understand that i wanna spend time with my friends and him. my house is like a permanent WARZONE! the only time its peaceful and quiet is when no one's at home. and why, its cause she isn't around to scream and shout. even my dad understands, why can't she?! i wish i had normal parents. parents who would encourage me and who are reasonable. not people who can't talk but scream and shout. people who are just plain unreasonable. so unreasonable that no matter what you say, you can never get through to them +sighs+
i'm beginning to wonder if i'm gonna go crazy just like them. really, that woman has to make everyone else's life MISERABLE before she's happy. goodness! +wonders+ what stupid satisfaction can she get from the whole world being pissed with her. and she's like getting pissed with the whole family for NO rhyme or reason. even my poor maid is like scared. stupid BITCH! +screams+ so much for telling myself to hold in my anger and not scold her cause she's my mom. promising myself to RESPECT her! after waking up early to NICELY ask her, what did she say? she screamed at me and asked me to pack my bags and leave home. gosh, what a bitch. and it wasn't like i was screaming. i was asking NICELY! she didn't hafta scream and me. what kinda respect does a person like this deserve? and now, she's blasting music. trying to overpower my mp3s. man, what the hell is wrong with her?
yes! i know she's at home. she doesn't hafta announce her presence like that. goodness! i dunno what else to say. i'm so pissed and frustrated and confused! +tugs hair+
-mel- have fun in malaysia ya. your amazing you know that, leaving me here alone to fight all the mutants and crazy things ALONE +pouts+
-dawn- ya i'm ok. i guess. still getting used to the fact that i'm the product of some crazy thing and might morph into one. don't think you wanna see that side of me yea.
-'los- yo dude. thanks for all the msges. but i still dunno what to do. if your asking if your contradicting yourself when dishing out advices, YES you are. but thanks for caring anyways.
man, i just realized this whole entry's been like a rant session. ah well
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 10:27 *-- [.//cry out**
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